I saw a rainbow on the way home from a great tasting at Reunion today. It was a full rainbow and just lovely......
Good friends lost their baby today. It's very sad....I think it's worse to have been pregnant and lost the baby than never to have been pregnant at all. I have tried for years and years to get pregnant. I had 2 surgeries to try to correct the issues, but nothing. I actually think I was pregnant about 5 years ago. But, I had the worst experience ever that Sunday morning. It was my birthday and I was at church with brother/sister in law. It never happened again.
Life is so good. There is always a reason for everything. I have spent countless hours worrying and fretting about having a child. I worry about not having anyone to care for me as I get older. But, I have 2 great stepsons and 4 great nieces and nephews. And, maybe that won't ever be a problem anyway. I will never have anyone that looks like me, is tall like me, has long legs, I will never dance the parents' dance at my child's wedding, never have anyone call me 'mom'....never have a Mother's Day gift. I don't think I was born with the mom gene anyway. I surely don't have the patience for a 2 yr old, 3 yr old, etc. I just don't. We have thought about invitro many times. I would love to have a daughter.....I know DH would. He would love to walk her down the aisle at her wedding. Have a little girl climb onto his lap. But, not to be for us.
So, I count my blessings that I have the wonderful life I have, and how great it is. I am married to a fabulous man, have 2 great kids to share my life and theirs with, have a fine roof over my head, vacations, own a business of my own, plenty of food and some left over for some fun. My parents are healthy and happy, and made good decisions so they can enjoy their retirement and not worry. My grandmother worried...I am blessed beyond anything I could imagine.
Life is good.
2 comments:
Wonderful post that to me sums up an attitude of Praising God in all things. I am so glad that you see His faithfulness in your life even in the painful parts. Oh how hard. I am so sorry for your friend's and your pain but rejoice with you over your many beautiful blessings. There is a book by Susan Hunt called Spritual Mothering. A spiritual mother does not necessarily have biological children but trains up women in the faith. That is an awesome calling. I have a friend that has no biological children but has spiritually mothered so many, incluiding me. A Titus woman...
I am glad to see you back in the blog world. I am currently blogslacking.... again.
Love from Misty
Oh hi right back!!!! I have been slacking myself....summer keeps us SO busy. School starts Aug 24, so back to it very soon....
Take care!! Come visit!
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